I love having a blog it's an outlet for my soul. I'm not the chattiest most outgoing person, I'm an introvert and I'm finally coming to terms with the fact. I used to beat up myself for it after many social gathering feeling like I was probably the most awkward person there, feeling like I wish I could have spoken more, made more connections, been a little more cheerful. But thats not me.
I love that person that can confidently be in a room full of people on their own and naturally strike up a conversation. They are my favorite people and ironically the people I'm drawn to and feel the most comfortable around. They can talk and talk and I'm a a great listener, I'm then able to get comfortable enough to open up. I love one on one conversations or small groups, big parties are kinda terrifying!
I hope I can be that confident person someday.
But for now I'm thankful to the Lord that he is freeing me from my fears and insecurities. I'm shy, quiet, not very outspoken in large crowds but thats the way the Lord made me and it's ok. Being an introvert doesn't mean I'm weird like I used to believe, it just means that I can better express myself in different forms, not just verbally.
Which brings me back to my goal. Since I feel most comfortable communicating and expressing myself through writing I want to do more of it. I never get much feedback from people on their thoughts on my blog but there's a few that have personally reached out to me and expressed to me how the Lord has used this to speak to them. I want the Lord to continue to use me, my favorite moments, my fears, struggles, accomplishments and everything in between to let his name be glorified.
I'm excited to see the Lord at work here and just grateful that in years to come I will be able to look back and see where the Lord had me at certain time. I continually go back and read my first post ever in 2011 when Fred and I had started the emotionally painful process of trying to conceive after two miscarriages, fast forward to 2014 and here I am with 2 beautiful sons! I praise the Lord for this journey he's put me in, and so I invite you to share with me, Where He Leads Me!